I haven’t……..
…..felt suicidal in weeks. Today though, I feel it sneaking up on me. I know it will throw a fog over my life that will make it impossible for me to see the good. I won’t be able to acknowledge it, or recognize it. I’ll be trapped in feelings rational and devastating. I’ll feel hopeless; unable to escape I’ll succumb to the feelings while fighting. I’ll be exhausted, I’ll be angry, I’ll be sad, I’ll be indignant.
This is not what I want for today.
I don’t know how to run from this.
