With all this extra time I’m supposed to be elevating, icing, and generally sitting around doing jack shit- I have had entirely too much time to think.

I’m very annoyed at my weight gain. Technically I’ve barely gained any actual inches since I have built a significant amount of muscle, but I don’t feel I’m as active as I should be.

It probably doesn’t help that Mike is a fitness nerd and the time and energy he puts into exercise and general physical improvement makes me feel very inadequate by comparison; although he would never think or say such a thing.

I want to finish our basement so I can have a bunch of room to dance, and do pilates, and wrestle, and sword fight. With the weather so cold- I haven’t been putting as much effort into finding time and space to make things happen for me.

It’s my own fault, there’s no excuse or anything real impeding me (other than my foot/ankle now).

I’ve already asked Mike to help me come up with a routine that I can do in the meantime while my foot is healing so I can start being better. I want to make some serious progress on the basement, I need to buy dance shoes, and I need to start practicing with my hoop.

That’s what I need to do. I want to live a really long time, I want to be healthy and happy, and be able to spend my free time exploring and living with Mike as much as possible. I guess I never realized, not until recently turning 24, how much effort I NEED to put in to make everything happen for me.

Well here goes- wish me good luck!